What a crazy month?!! With so many bad things that has happened this month.. I  just hope something good will come out of it in the long run.

I realize that at the end of the day.. the only person you can trust is yourself. There’s nobody in this world who can understand you better than yourself, considering you are the one who made yourself to be the person you are today. You are the person who made your past, who is living the present, and who will create your future. You are the only person who knows yourself better than anyone even if there are people in your life who tries to. I know for sure that nobody can stop me from doing what is best for me especially when you know that the people who you “think” cares about are the ones who tries to tear you apart. I guess it’s really ironic when they say that there are people who you will come across in life.. some will stay and others will go because they can’t fit within your life for some odd reason. Maybe it’s not meant to be or God just has another plan for me.. or that person. But I do believe that it’s very unfortunate that there are people in this world who is willing to hurt others without conscience.. or think of no consequences. I guess they just haven’t realize that karma is a bitch and that it will come back to them 10x fold. I believe it! And for those who are good to people.. they will be rewarded for their deeds.. someday. Patience is a virtue.

At this moment.. I’m starting over. Cutting out the people who has deeply hurt me and moving forward to a new beginning.

In some odd way, you somehow find a way to keep me wanting to hold on..

I must admit that I’ve been feeling impatient with what the outcome would be between us. Most of the time, I really wish I could read the thoughts that runs through your mind. Other times, I just wish I have a remote control where I can just push a button to fast forward into the future.. its too good to be true. I guess I’ve been thinking way too much of what we should be now. I know I constantly miss you throughout the day and the feeling of being next to you at night. I hope your not mad at me when I constantly ask if you’re going to make an effort to call or send me some kind of message throughout the day. I mean.. I do like hearing from you. Most importantly, I would rather be around you as much as I can.

I know I can’t wait to get off work tomorrow and spend the rest of my day with you :]

I hope you are pleased with every change I have made so far. You know that I only did whatever I did just for you.. for us. I told you that I am willing to do whatever it takes to fix our relationship either by deleting someone’s number from my contacts or just having me come around more often than I should have done from the beginning. I only made these changes to prove to you that I am trying. So far, I just hope that you see the progress that I am trying to make.

I just want you to know that I am happy with everything that unfolds between us this time around. I know I want more than just being your friend, because I would rather stand next to you as your girlfriend than some girl. But if taking things slow and trying to figure things out this way would be better for you, then I am willing to stick around until you finally make a decision of where you would like to take our “friendship” to. At the rate it’s going, I think our friendship can turn into the relationship that you deserve and should have gotten from the get go. Sometimes, I already feel as if we are back together again considering we still act as a couple most of the time. Until then, only time can tell what happens between us.

“Now I can’t predict what the future holds, but I’ll fight forever to keep you close”

“Let me tell you how I feel, I never felt a love so real. Like an island from a cloud, you’d picked me somehow. I was yours and you were mine, in another place and time. Like two islands in the sea, separated endlessly.

Is there a chance for love.. like I’ve been dreaming of. Dreaming about why you and me are gone, so I’m holding on..” — Qed

I am truly happy to know that you still really do care and love me, despite all the bullshit that happened between us.. I promise to never let it happen again.

Most importantly, I am happy to know that you still want me in your life, even though we agree on being just friends this time around. I truly understand your reasons why we wouldn’t get back together as a couple yet. I am willing to make the changes that should have been done from the get go, but this time around.. I will not fight my reasons why I shouldn’t do it or ignore what you would like to see. I promise that I wouldn’t hesitate to change my ways just to prove to you that I am willing to make it work. Until then, I will patiently wait for you to come around, prove to you that I can be the one for you, and continue to love you whether you believe it or not.

I know it will take time, but I am willing to make the effort.